Am I alone in this?

It's 12am now and I am crying, listening to DBSK's Toki wo Tomete. I only know a very limited level of Japanese but I somehow understood parts of the song, bits and pieces here and there.

I decided to google the lyrics and translation. And continue listening to the song. When I saw the translation, it felt like a song that I would like to dedicate back to the 5 boys of DBSK, from me to them...

I just miss the 5 of them together so much. I am not even a fan that was with them since debut. In fact I only found out about them this year, 2 years after the controversy started. Yes, I am a few years too late. Sometimes I wonder, am I the only one hanging on to this dream of them reuniting again? Am I just intentionally making my own life miserable.

As I listened to the song for many more loops, I felt the song could have been something they are singing to each other.

時を止めて

Stop the time

ずっと君のそばにいたい

I want to be by your side forever

And the 'time' in question would be 2008, the DBSK year.
Note: The above is purely my opinion. And I am not even saying or hinting that they ARE singing it for each other. I am just saying it is so apt and so ironic...

Great, my eyes are completely swollen now. My nose is way past runny, it is blocked. Forgot how many tissues I have used. And tomorrow, there's a meeting with the higher-ups. Great.

And lastly, again...
Am I the only one looking for 5 to be together again?
Did the 5 themselves already abandon this dream of becoming together again... T_T
I am lost...
I am confused...
I can't stop crying...